Fragile

Yesterday I had a HUGE scare and it left me feeling really vulnerable. About lunch time when I went to the restroom I noticed I was spotting. I immediately called both my mom and Michael both of which told me to go in to the doctor. I was not having any contractions or pain, but I was still really panicked as I had not experienced this with any of my other pregnancies.

When I got to the doctor they checked me out and said that everything looked good. She said my cervix was tightly closed, still thick and long, and that I was not actively bleeding. (at this point I could breathe much better) She told me that my cervix looked very vascular and that she felt like the bleeding was from cervical irritation??

They then put me on the monitor for a good thirty minutes to watch the babies heartbeat, fetal movements, and confirm that my uterus was not contracting. Kendall was not to pleased with the straps around my belly. I told Michael I wish he could have been there to see her kicking and rolling and hitting at them. After about thirty minutes the doctor came in and said everything looked great and that I could go home.

I left feeling much better than when I went (obviously), but I also felt fragile almost. I tried explaining it to Michael last night. Which I don't know if he understood. Alot of the time he thinks I am superwoman (which is my fault). It was soo scary for me to think how vulnerable Kendall would still be to the outside world, and how important it is for my body to hold up and keep her safe.